Friday, April 26, 2013
Lately, I've kind of happened upon a blogging identity crisis. What kind of blogger do I want to be? Do I have any relevance whatsoever in the blogging world? Also of note, I hate the term "blogging world."
I struggle with the fact that, in all honesty, I have zero important things to say. Nothing I write on this little blog will ever amount to much, will never have a truly lasting impact. It is my hope that maybe, someday it will. But right now? Not so much. I'm just a 21 year old nanny/student (but let's face it, I haven't been to a single class since last July. So.). I'm not married (yet), I don't have children to blog about. I'm not into the DIY world as much these days and my writing skills are hit and miss. Like, I really have to be fired up about something to write a post with real substance.
What could I possibly have to blog about? I've ruled out that I'm not a DIY blogger, I'm not a mommy blogger, obviously. So what does that leave? Lifestyle blogging? What the heck is lifestyle blogging anyway? For real, legit question.
I'm terrible at keeping schedules, and at the moment, I struggle with finding things to post about. Blogging shouldn't be this hard, right? I guess when it is this hard, maybe that's my cue to call it quits, eh?
4 years ago, I started Elizabeth Haley. Not sure why I decided to call my blog my first and middle name, but hey - it worked for 3.5 years. I look back on my very first blog on Wordpress, and I cringe... My writing style (um, not sure if that aspect has changed, but let's hope it has), the over sharing, everything. I guess it truly does represent me at that age. I was a junior in high school when I started it, and started Elizabeth Haley 2.0 soon after graduating. Both represent major phases and transitions in my life, just as this blog represents this new phase of becoming a wife, and hopefully a mom in the next couple of years.
I've gone from writing to maybe 3 people, to an audience of nearly 300, back to around 30 solid regular readers. And you know what? That is a-okay with me. I don't need hundreds of followers to feel validated through all of this. Because, just like when I started blogging, it's all still for fun. I do it because I love it.
I guess all that to say, I want to keep blogging. I want to put something out there every day in hopes that it reaches someone and it will mean something to them.